You are being followed

This post was originally from my weekly devotional, Starlight Reflections.

Thinking that someone is following you is a terrifying experience, isn't it? You feel vulnerable. Exposed. Unsure of what to do or how to handle it. Ironically, though none of us want anyone to follow us in that manner, our society is geared toward gaining followers. We thrive on likes, shares, retweets, mentions, and on and on. But do we really know what it means to be followed? Do we know what it means to follow someone? 

In the last month, I've gained over a hundred new followers on social media: strangers that are able to see everything I post. They've seen pictures of me. They've been able to go to my website and learn about me. Some of them have purchased or downloaded my books. They've read my words. So, like it or not, I'm exposed. I'm vulnerable. But my fear is not for my safety. My fear is whether I'm worth following, or if the person who wrote those books is a fraud. I try to be honest and sincere, I really do. I wrote The Gadarene as a means of helping people to have strong faith. Do I have strong faith? I wrote Through the Needle as a means of helping people overcome their past to pursue the calling God has placed on them. Have I overcome my past? Am I pursuing the calling God has placed on me? I wrote Fate of the Watchman to convince people to have compassion on others. Do I have compassion on others? 

“There. I said it. I admitted it. Are you disappointed?”

Where am I going, and who is following me on that path? That two-part question is one we should all ask ourselves. Personally, I don't know if I want to answer it. Here's what I know: the world I live in is desperately in need of Jesus, and yet I very rarely share the gospel of Jesus Christ with people. There. I said it. I admitted it. Are you disappointed? I have worked with people--at my current job and at my former places of employment--for years and have never so much as handed them a gospel tract or invited them to church, let alone gave them the gospel. Yet, I write books about people with great faith. Yet, I wrote a book about a man who sees the suffering of the world and realizes how selfish and willfully blind to the needs of others he is. I profess to believe that a place called Hell is real, but I don't sound the warning to the lost and unsaved. I read my Bible most days of the week, but I don't spend much time meditating on the word. I desire answers to prayer, but I don't pray nearly as often as I should. 

“The nature of my flesh and the nature of my spirit are enemies.”

I'm not telling you all of this for pity. I'm just being real. If someone is following you, where are you leading them? I want people to meet the Savior. I want those who've met the Savior to trust him more. The book I'm currently writing deals with spiritual warfare and the power of prayer. My warfare is no different than that of anyone else. The nature of my flesh and the nature of my spirit are enemies. My flesh wants a life of comfort. My spirit desires to live a life pleasing to the Lord. My flesh fears that because it knows "...all that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution" (2 Timothy 3:12). My spirit wants to count it all joy when I suffer for the name of Christ. So when I think about losing my temper, gossiping, laughing at or saying inappropriate things in front of the lost, I am ashamed because I know I'm not leading my followers down the right path. Am I saying this so that you'll feel sorry for me? No. I'm saying this because it's time for me to look behind me and realize that there is a following, and I have a responsibility to be like Paul when he said, "Be ye followers of me, even as I also am of Christ" (1 Corinthians 11:1). I also say these things in hope that you'll pray for me. Pray that I do become a better witness for Christ and a more devoted follower of my Lord and Savior.  

I also say these things to YOU because YOU have a following. Where are you leading the people in your life?

This brief blog post was taken from my weekly devotions, “Starlight Reflections.” If you would like to receive these devotions every Monday, sign up here for free: DEVOTIONS